my quest for euphoria

It was June. I was in my favorite coffee shop with one of my favorite people making a summer to-do list. "Camping trips, start band, make movie," etc. By the time we got to the end of the page, my head was reeling - "so much to do! so little time!" But, oh, the possibilities! I was quickly infused with a sense of I-can-do-anything! as we packed up and strolled out the door, and it wasn't until we were across the street that I realized my excitement and energy had been highly influenced by, what else, A SONG! "What was the song playing as we left? I've heard it before! It makes me feel good!" Unfortunately, that was all I knew about it. So I have made it my mission to find this song - a difficult task with nothing to guide me: no lyrics, no artist, no nothing. I have spent hours online searching for lists (coffee shop playlists, feel good, best of 2007) and scanning for words like "upbeat," "climax," "synth," and "unique female vocals," and youtubing anything that looked promising, to no avail.

However, for a few seconds I was hopeful about this song. The intro grabbed me. The melancholy refrains over building beats, combined with trains, unrequited love and home kept me coming back for more. Despite the downer lyrics, this song was a definite upper. It became my latest obsession.



Perhaps not what I was looking for, perhaps short-lived, but it was holding me over.

Until last night. Sitting outside, while enjoying the warm night and a cold beer, I was wrenched from deep conversation by a familiar beat... "could this be IT?" I thought. I shuffled through my memory files. The jukebox displayed the artist and song, which I wrote down, still unsure. It had all the necessary components, but did it give me THE FEELING?



I have been inconclusive. The quest continues, but if I found THE SONG, would I even recognize it? At this point I don't even know what I'm looking for. I guess I just want to feel on top of the world. An impossible demand of a mere song? I haven't given up yet.